Please slow down…

I’ve yet to consider.

It is happening too fast, gawd! I don’t know what to do and how to react.

Why is everything has to take place all at one shot?

Give me a break please…

Reason is found.

 Glad for that choice i made even though it hurts so bad.

It is clear-cut now…

Let it be the sweetiest memory I could ever think of.

Goodbye…

Get this straight! You were the one who wants to have two. You uttered lotsa crap that it gonna be a good decision, well you said it was for convenience’s sake. You mentioned that it will be easier to handle two at the same time, cos they could grow up together, go to school together and a good company for each other at play. But did you ever think how difficult it gonna be to look after the two of them?

You leave them in the morning and picked them only after your work. Sometime you have dinner with your spouse and you reach my place at 9 plus?You don’t ever think how tired my mum was, yelling and how stressed she was looking after them. You think it easy? I dun think so… Over the weekends you still seek parents’ help cos you couldn’t even manage when you are alone. You only thought for yourself, you don’t think of my mum and me at all. My mum called to ask what time you are picking them up from my place, you got irritated cos you thought my mum is being calculative. But weren’t you calculative too? Yes you are one. But come on, they are your kids. Your responsibility.

Please do not blame me or my parents for what they are now for their behaviour. It is the way you groom them. They have traits of yours, the negatives ones. We tried to change them, but afterall you did your own way and they still follow it. Cause you are their parent afterall.

I hate your face!

The past seems better.

Moving on that I decided.

 But it seems difficult.

Been feeling rather restless, fatigue.

Idk why.

Maybe due to extreme laziness.

 

I wonder how this year’s gonna be like. It will be the same like the previous years probably. Probably worst than ever? 

Hope everything goes well, smoothly pls.    

Ankle is slightly better. Not fully recovered yet, can’t walk much.

Band practise resumes tmr, idk if  Ishould go since my foot still swells.

Another gathering tmr too. Same place, sempang bedok for break fast like the other time I went with the malay ppl from NYPSO. Idk if I should go… DARN ANKLE! zzz

Not much preparation for hari raya done. Sigh

Sprained an akle few days ago.

Cancelled a lot of appointments recently, stayed home cos i can barely walk.

Hari raya is coming and I haven even started cleaning the house yet. With my ankle like that, idk how i gonna do tt. Hrmph..

Much shopping to be done. Mum’s been complaining cos I cant do any shopping at the moment.

Sigh.

I am not okay.

I feel so sucky.

I’ve been so pessimistic and it happened for real.

Idk. Idk. Idk.

Idk what I gonna do next.

Just forget bout everything? OR… Just hang on, and give it a try still.

Im always stuck in these of shit. Crap!

Idk why I can still lend u my ears, give u some moral support, some stupid encouragement when I thought it over and not thinking about myself at all. 

How dumb… 

Hello ppl!

I am good. I am not emo.

Just that I have been thinking a lot lately.

But anyways, I am back to my usual self.

Well.. It is a great feeling to be able to chat non-stop on msn like I used to. HAHA! U know, I’ve so busy the past few months and I always couldn’t sustain a conversation in msn for long. Its either I have things to rush on or Im just tired and gotta go to sleep that kind of thing.

I am not lost for speech anymore. WHEE! LOL!

Hmm.. I am still in doubt, should I continue or just quit?

Probably I’ll just give it a try first and then make my final decision? 

Wrong choice of movie to watch last night.

It brought back those sweet memories.

Much hated cos I started to think bout it again.